wizard & paradox

You see many years ago I destoyed my person and ego, but maintained and managed the ID!

So I am quite calm, assertive, friendly, and have the ability to understand why people fear.

Recently the job I was in was run down the place of work closed, and everyone who was left made redundant.

I had a choice a "shite" redunancy package and unemployment as there are so few jobs here or move to Glasgow to take up a similar position.

I chose Glasgow as its better to work and bring in some money.

An ex colleague and his partner had made the move two weeks previously, as soon as he arrived he was made very unwelcome, I put this down to his lack of diplomacy and his ability to speak without considering the consequences.
And in part it was some of that, yet it was also a genuine dislike of his new colleagues towards him as he was an outsider and not part of the clique. Obviously childish and immature etc like children and their capability to bully and be cruel at school, as a child I always defended the weak from bullies and usually got into trouble for it I was always quick to anger and leap to the attack to protect that which cannot protect itself.
So they got to my ex coleague an easy task with his personality and he was foolish and did not think of his actions and now he works elsewhere, but that is his business.

So I turned up there with expectations of a similar/same job that I had been made redundant from, lets face it they are compelled by law to offer me something.

So I arrived and get some project work still ongoing with improvements made..

I do not get the job that I was told I would get, and I take a £5,000 pay cut.

Now please note from the day I was dispositioned I have had nothing in writing! There is however a letter stating if my role, (In Campbeltown Now Closed), did not work out I could return to my previous role, I also have a copy of my position of the previous role, neither of these two letters have been honoured.

So I drive the 127 odd miles to work on a Monday morning spend the next five days working from 12:00 to 20:00 ish and drive back again on a Friday. The drive takes about 3.5 hours due to the nature of the roads.
I need to work for the money to support my son and pay the rent etc OH yeah and to pay my keep for the flat I have to share during the week.

I am generally diligent and professional and take care over my work.

I have the ability to communicate on numerous levels on varied subjects and I can normally turn the cheek and give people the benifit of the doubt. These people should have little to fear from me, I have no agenda hidden or otherwise. All I want to do is got to work make enough to survive and go home. Although working where I live would be a lot better if there was an adequate role.

So why then should I now be the target of LAM this smiling assasin with not so much more faces than the town clock she is the town clock?

The team which I now look after since the demise of my afore mentioned colleague is relatively new to their role some having no previous work experience but expected to perform, (as I am),  in a very unfair work environment. The situation is similar to that of the local operation that was closed anyone who worked there and reads this will know what I mean.

So imagine battering yourself all day tring to acheive targets while others around you have inner sources and are cheating the system they are employed to use, pretty frustrating eh?

I could go on but to get to a point last night at 18:30 I allowed myself and 2 members of my team who had worked hard and managed to acheive sales a quick 5 minute smoke! This is normal practice indeed the OPS manager said 2 weeks ago she did not mind if staff were stressed and got out for 5 and came back in refreshed focused.

Alas LAM as soon as my back was turned phoned the OPS manager and complained that I had gone outside with my team, all of them!, (although only 2), and we were not on target.

So the OPS manager comes out swearing like a trooper very professional!

And little cheeky smoke's are now banned, I think LAM did a brilliant job.

Yet I ask myself why? Why, should an alleged experienced manager like LAM have to resort to such underhand, non assertive methods to score points?

So I am in vipers nest surrounded by politically aware sycophants who have no shame to cast a stone despite themselves living in a glass house.

I did send an e-mail of concern using some rather choice descriptive words of LAM, not so sure if that was wise, but hey I have not been this angry in a long time.

So as far as I am concerned the gloves are off time to fight fat with fire.

Time for the Wizard to go Dark Side! And you know what if I loose my job over this at least I will know I have done it to be noble, to stand up for myself and others, to let the blind fools who run the show start to rub the sleep from their eyes.

Its easy for them to have one scapegoat, one wicker man to pick holes of negativity at, and there is a time to turn the cheek and there is a time for action that time is now!

Woe unto you LAM COW PIG DOG if you want to act like a childish unevolved animal then that is how you will be treated. Welcome to the BarBQ of your soul.